Tuesday, September 25, 2012


Read this sonnet 4 times at least and then listen 4* more

Saturday, June 9, 2012

nothing into something

Lest you think this blog has become nothing but a dropbox for songs and trite commentary...

That moment when you are hitting all the buttons on the car radio trying to find a decent song
when the air hits your lungs on an amusement ride before the scream
when you're waiting to hear the next heartbeat


I feel like I'm stuck in that fog right now
that writer cramp of life
I know where I'm coming from and I do have faith in the future
it's just getting to that future part that's...           
the monitor is going up and down
 but I can't hear the beats


Of course I have the realization that I need to move
and I feel like I have been trying
I have interests
but I honestly don't know which ones are important anymore
or which ones I really do and will care about in the future
I want to do nothing
but everything

To the everlasting credit of the world,
I have been bombarded with power messages lately like:
In truth, I do appreciate them
however unrealistic they may now seem

I just want to do something meaningful
and long lasting, 
and life changing 
and creative
and fulfilling

and i guess i'm just not sure what that one "thing" is yet

it's a frustrating place to be

I believe in the frustration is where the truth is to be found

I find solace is this past entry
isn't it funny how we're often played by repetition

a smoky morning
clouds masked the sky
rain patting
small puddles forming
her vision was temporalily clouded
winter had played spring
eager new leaves strewn the ground shaken
the future was muggy
cryptic and closed
like a bud awaiting detection

and this scripture
< 1 Corinthians 13:12 >

I take peace from this idea (courtesy of Diane von Furstenburg)

“I did not know what I wanted to do, but I knew the woman I wanted to be"

here's to putting that base into action soon
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Thursday, May 10, 2012


This is an apple. Actually it's a hipster apple. The color swatch I used for it was entitled "hipster life."  Basically this apple describes my life right now. Jobless (meh!), wears wannabe accessories, colored from the sun, eating all the time. Okay, that connection was a stretch.

..get your hipster on...I dare you not to repeat this line:

                     "you're a human too, tell your shadow what to do, don't let it get away"

Friday, April 6, 2012

Okay srsly. If it's not the couple talking its the boy chawing on his reeces pieces.
Give me back my library. The quiet one.
I keep avoiding writing about the Yellow Wallpaper.
Headphones in.

Friday, March 30, 2012

Isn't it funny how songs come to you out of the blue?
This one came yesterday
her voice is enchanting

please excuse the awkward background slideshow

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Saturday, March 3, 2012

the street just next to you

A tornado recently went through my last area that I served in during my mission for the LDS church. I wish that I could be there to help pick up the lost pieces of buildings and hearts. This picture really brought it home to me because I turned down the street by this school many times.
It is always humbling to see how elements in life can change so quickly. Treasure today and those you love.